I don't want it if you're not in it.

Colossians 2:2-7 (Message)  "I want you woven into a tapestry of love, in touch with everything there is to know of God. Then you will have minds confident and at rest, focused on Christ, God's great mystery. 
3 All the richest treasures of wisdom and knowledge are embedded in that mystery and nowhere else. And we've been shown the mystery! 
4 I'm telling you this because I don't want anyone leading you off on some wild-goose chase, after other so-called mysteries, or "the Secret." 
5 I'm a long way off, true, and you may never lay eyes on me, but believe me, I'm on your side, right beside you. I am delighted to hear of the careful and orderly ways you conduct your affairs, and impressed with the solid substance of your faith in Christ. 
6 My counsel for you is simple and straightforward: Just go ahead with what you've been given. You received Christ Jesus, the Master; now live him.
7 You're deeply rooted in him. You're well constructed upon him. You know your way around the faith. Now do what you've been taught. School's out; quit studying the subject and start living it! And let your living spill over into thanksgiving."

If you've never loved someone and then lost that someone, you may not understand what I am about to share. If you love someone and know that they can never be in your life, sometimes it feels as though life is no longer worth living. We have so many dreams we want to share with the other person, and all that we are seems  wrapped in their presence. Then they are gone. I lived this in 1980. My first born was delivered on March 31st only to find she had a severe heart abnormality. She lived sixteen days and then went back to Heaven. I wanted to go with her. She'd been part of all my dreams for eight long months. We hadn't seen her yet but she had changed our lives. It's amazing how you can never lay your eyes on someone, yet they rock your world and change you forever. God is like that. I've never seen Him, but I have felt Him. I was all of twenty-four years old and had looked forward to being a wife and mother all my life. She was my dream come true. I had felt her, but never seen her.  After my short time with her I had to say, "Goodbye". I thought to myself, a mother should never have to let her child go, it should be the other way around. I tried to make deals with God, but you and I both know God doesn't make deals. So when she left, I wanted to go too. When I hear this song, I think of that young girl some thirty-nine years ago, and wish I could have treated her more gently and explained so many things to her I have learned in those thirty-nine years, but that too is not a deal I can make. So I surrender. 

Years have passed, I have let go of my dear daughter knowing I will be reunited with her in Heaven, but God has never let go of me. And He still holds her, even though I can't.  Here is His presence I still don't understand everything, but I trust Him. I know He has only good planned out for my life. I don't know what you have had to release? I don't know what you are still holding on to? I do know that God will never let go of you. If you want released from all He has prepared for you, you will have to let go of Him.

ACTION STEP:  If you are struggling with feelings of depression, go to the one who will never let go of you. God wants you with Him. When we see Him all our questions will be answered. Spend time in His presence. In His presence everything changes. You may be wondering how do you get in His presence? His word, the Bible is His language and in it He has a conversation with those who read it. It's unlike any other book you will ever read. It comes alive as you breathe it in and taste and see, in each word that it is life to those that find it. Go ahead and search for Him today, and you will find what you are looking for.